In these days of little interaction and a lot is introspection, I find myself in a (not to nice) internal catch 22.
Something good happens to me (however small), a random act of kindness, praise at work, a loving embrace from my kids, congrats on my side hustle, and I automatically think..... oh but this is nothing, anyone can do this, they have to love me... and in two seconds I go from having the possibility of happiness, to self-loathing and misery (that a bit extreme- but for dramatic effect, it works).
If my life is a happy life, if I am well and content and comfortable.... why do I make myself so miserable? What do I gain? Why does my ego need such pain?
And then most importantly.... what can I do to get over myself?
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