So here I am (WE are, because there is no I when you are alone in a new country with kids). My initial thoughts on this crazy/scary/exciting (mini) adventure.
First, I have done NO schooling- it has been impossible. It was either murder my son in the attempt of getting them to do some research or just ignore school and drive them over and over to the same spot on the rocks where they have been battling an ant colony all week.
Secondly, I fear my fears have come true. It is a lonely experience. For some reason, I have had more time to just sit with myself.... while the kid's playhouse on the sand dunes, while I give them free time on electronics, and after they fall asleep... it’s a bit much. To be honest I was not expecting (or wanting) this much time to myself. It’s as if part of the daily house routine is not needed to be done (bc we are far from home) and that liberates time (plus the not having my husband with me) .... so I am finishing my first book and on the lookout for a few more to read.
Thirdly, boys definitely have hormone swings. My beautiful smart boy sometimes just doesn’t know what to do with himself (and I, of course, suck at putting the pieces back together).
Fourthly, it's day 4 and I already had a mini-meltdown. Checking out of a supermarket (they don’t give plastic bags anymore and I, of course, did not know what) so I’m caring 7 things, the light company calls me (bc, of course, we’ve been having blackouts) and I’m overwhelmed. The kids were oblivious to my juggling act until I literally turned around and dropped all the shopping into their little arms (half of which fell to the floor before their surprised and scared little eyes). After the incident we, of course, had A talk... I guess that this is what it's all about. Everyone has to learn each other’s breaking points.
All in all, we have had a lot more good times than bad moments.... so the journey continues
ps- I completely forgot ️ to mention the half a bottle of wine I am drinking nightly... partly with the excuse that Tannat is my all-time favorite wine (and this is like the only place where it is readily available) but really... its because I need it to feel a little peace and to feel under control, and it helps
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