“It’s funny” I never cease to be surprised by how energy fuels EVERYTHING. For a month now I have felt disconnected, not able to put my roots down and be. I blamed it on this and that and everything. But the truth, it’s all my fault. I was not ready, was not able, was not open, was not willing. In two seconds, one conversation, one tear, one decision, and everything changes. All of a sudden things start falling into place as if they had always been there, they had just been waiting until I was ready and then BANG, one after the other they start appearing, right in front of me, helping me along my yellow brick road.
Now that I am open, it seems like (only because I’ve heard it from 4 different sources in the last 3 days 🤷🏼♀️) my battle is about my control/flexibility. Acknowledging and making peace with the reality of anger I feel towards myself due to the rigidity with which I treat life... Now the funny (and hard part) is how to manage the counter energy (the one that I have chosen as the defining one - even though it isn’t) which is my flexibility, adaptability, go-with-the-flow-ness. This is the counter energy and when I am in this counter energy,
I am powerless. So this isn’t a good thing. Even talking about it has made me all dizzy, there are things the unconscious doesn’t want you to see, and it covers them up with flowers and honey when you look, it makes you turn away...... but patience, perseverance, and meta-analysis...... I’ll get to the root of it, even if it takes me a while.
Peace
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