(including gin tonics of course…)
Questions about being and self- discovery
It all rises from the constant feeling of “not good enough”
I wasn’t the best mom yesterday
I could have been a better wife this morning
I didn’t handle work as gracefully as I could have....
And so on and so on.....
But why?
Why do we live with this society imposed need/ obligation to be the best? Plus, really, WTF is THE BEST? It’s an absolute, and I am a relativist. It is bullshit and we, smart woman, know that. We know that in our rational brains.... but our hearts still suffer as we fight and struggle to be more than what we are.... irrationally searching for and demanding ourselves to be and give something different than what we are able to give.
It’s wrong. Period. And I wish I had the strength to fully embrace that, from the emotional core of my being.
....Maybe another night of gin tonics will do it
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