What is it that makes you belong to a place? Is it how you look? Is it understanding the nuances of behavior and interaction? Is it your how you show yourself capable of "owning" the place?
I don’t know..... what I do know, is that I don’t like not belonging, I don’t like being treated as a foreigner.... Of course I am fully aware that that is what I am. This is not a new thing, I have been a foreigner my whole life, I have never been from where I live, yet I have never felt so foreign.
I fear that there will be no other way.
Not sure what it is that gives me away..... but it has exacerbated my feeling of being unwelcome, the feeling of not having arrived, of not being able to start making this a home, because for someone with the kind of life that I have had, home is belonging.
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