I started writing because I thought it would be very interesting to materialize my children's shift away from consumerism and digitization. I was aware that they were going to go through a process of detoxing that would be interesting to journal....
Now that we are fully immersed in the process (2 weeks in), I realize that they are not going through this alone. I am having a much harder time then they are (and this is not something that I had foreseen).
It sounds exaggerated, and it sounds dramatic and it sounds very millenialish.... but I've lost my life. I really had not demensionalized the ramifications of my connectivity. Now that my phone is once again a phone (people actually make calls!!!!) I realize how much I depended on being connected.
Let me go through some of the ramifications....
Family; near and far being able to thoughtlessly talk, send photos...etc
Work; there is being remote... and being remote. Remoteness when you don't have connection (FYI: not so much fun).
Music; I am a random freak, my Spotify account knew me better than my husband knows me (I had diligently trained my AI over years) so much so that I could play the same radio station on different days and it would read my mood and change the playlist. That is gone. I actually have to pick a playlist? NO, I refuse. That is torture.
Gym; it was my intellectual time. I had my podcasts waiting for me and it made my 60 min of cardio time-warp. Now I'm just getting dumber
Home gym; Nike training app was my savior. Needless to say that is gone and I am gaining weight
Car rides to the beach? I use to entertain kids with intelligent podcasts... now I get frustrated hearing them fight the whole way
Don't even get me started on my IG!!
I could go on.... but this has made me depressed so I will stop
So yes..... I am finding out I was addicted and I am detoxing.
While I go through this process.... I am thinking a lot about what it means. What I am gaining vs what I am losing. How do I keep myself up-to-date and current while also being fully present?
It will be a long winding torturous road.... meanwhile... the transparent warm waters of the Caribbean will help sooth my soul 😜
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